Each day I wake up feeling older than the day before, and slightly regretful that I have one less day to really live.  One day less to really make my own dreams come true.  One day closer to the final curtain.

This might sound a tiny bit morbid to some, but it’s a reality that I live in each day via the lessons I’ve learned from my daughter:  That we have this single life, with it’s unknown date of expiration, and that we should live each moment with clarity, peace, and value.  I’m not afraid of death, at least not like the typical person is.  But I am afraid of not having savored each day thoroughly before they are all used up and gone.

So when a single clock cycle ticks by when I haven’t done something to get me at least one day closer to that goal, I furrow my brow at it and attempt to slow down the clock with my mind, ala Hiro Nakamura.  It never works, but does that mean I should stop trying?  Certainly not!  What if it works next time?

Anyway (as I meander my way casually to something resembling a point), I’ve come to realize something in the form of a mild epiphany.  Seeing where I want to be with my own life, makes me sad for those who become spread too thin, or simply have no idea of “what they want to be when they grow up”.  In myself, my art is coming full circle.  I wanted to be a professional illustrator of some kind, and never realized that the best way for me to get there was by being a great web designer first.  For by doing so, I was provided with knowledge, technique, patience, diligence, motivation, organization, patience, and also a nice paycheck at the end of the day.

The most important thing to clarify though is that this path is mine, and mine alone.  What you can do to learn from this is to study your own path, where you’ve been, and where you’re at now.  It’s the only way to really see where you’re going.  My advice is this:  Do the best you can now, because no matter how you look at it, “now” is just one step toward your dream, and by treating with any less enthusiasm, then you treat your dreams with similar attitude.

Find value in your current role, so that you may find hope of reaching the next.

I hope this helps somebody.